Thursday, September 2, 2010

The Quitter

I did something new today: I quit a job. Not only did I quit a job, but I quit it after four days. Yikes.

Gymboree should have been perfect. I love children. I love people. Despite that, something just wasn't settling in my soul with this job. Every time I was there, I felt a great deal of anxiety, and the past few days had been some of the tensest I can remember. Not a good situation for my emotional well-being!

The amazing thing is that God knows what I need, and he loves me enough to constantly reveal it to me. One of the junior high girl's mom is going back to school and needs someone to be with this student and her younger brother two days a week after school- and she asked me! I couldn't be more excited! Getting paid to spend relational time with one of your students?? (Oh wait, paid youth ministers DO get that, haha.) It's a much smaller time commitment with some great students and I am just so thankful that Theresa wants me to spend time with her kids.

It's so funny how life is in a constant state of change. I'm trying to learn to embrace it, and just go with the flow. Quitting a job after four days was definitely a risk, and I felt like a total flake. But maybe taking those risks and not doing everything "the right way" is good. It's important to realize that I'm not perfect, and I don't need to be good at everything. If I'm not responding to my calling, it's not going to work. I'm glad I got the chance to learn this!